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[09 Mar 2008|08:19pm] |
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being home alone is awesome, getting to watch whatever i want, peace and quiet. i love it.
the novelty wears off though.
when it comes to dinner time and i have to make my own food.
usually, i'd be ok with it, but today i'm hungover as shit.
got so messy last night, this morning was not a pretty picture.
now its almost 8:30pm and i'm so bored and lonely.
:(
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| canberra |
[28 Feb 2008|12:04am] |
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motion city soundtrack |
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i might use this thing a little more now.
why the fuck not right?
ami. i might get you to make it pretty like your one. i have no idea how to do it myself.
so, what a day/night last night was.
apart from the joy that soundwave will be, i don't think anything will top ami and my canberra trip for a while.
up there with the best 24 hours of my life.
we're the stealthest of stealth.
MCS are the some of the great loves of my life.
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| paramore |
[08 Oct 2007|09:13pm] |
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we're fucking amazing.
everything i wanted them to be.
even more if it's possible.
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| or so i thought .. |
[22 Apr 2007|06:18pm] |
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cute is what we aim for |
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friend·ship
/'fr?nd??p/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[frend-ship] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun
1. of being a friend; association as friends: to value a person's friendship.
2. a friendly relation or intimacy/
3. friendly feeling or disposition.
last time i checked, it also meant to never judge your opinion of a "friend" based on someone else's thoughts and feelings. it sucks that because some people i thought were my friends lack that ability to be able to make their own mind up about me, that i'm the one that misses out and has to let go of a friendship i really hoped wouldn't change due to circumstances i no longer wish to have any part in.
i didn't think you would make up your own mind about me without asking me anything about the situation.
i also didn't think you'd be the one to rule me out when you know nothing about the situation, and whatever you're being fed is only a one sided story, and even that's probably 75% bullshit.
you're the one person i hoped wouldn't change towards me with this whole thing, i had hoped that you would be able to understand and that you would know better than to believe everything you hear.
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| ouch |
[09 Apr 2007|07:27pm] |
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nfg. |
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that about sums up the weekend.
that and fucking awesome.
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| everyones a let down |
[01 Apr 2007|09:16pm] |
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the postal service. |
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when you need me i'm there.
i'm not the only one who noticed your rudeness.
i know to you i'm security for when things go bad.
when things go bad you turn to me, and in turn, i'm there for you.
when things are good i hardly exist.
i hint the sarcasm in your txt.
i notice i get no reply with comments.
i want to kill you like only a best friend could.
with kindness.
i'm not going to let it bother me.
i'm going to try anyway.
see how long it takes before you need something.
before you need me to take you away from whats getting you down.
i can't depend on you.
i love you.
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| ouch. |
[11 Mar 2007|10:45am] |
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paramore cancelled their australian tour.
im completely devistated.
as if i havent waited for long enough.
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[27 Feb 2007|08:25pm] |
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the dresden dolls |
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i want to make my journal pretty.
any help would be appreciated.
trying for a job at muffin break. fingers crossed.
+44/unwritten law thursday
mxpx friday
fall out boy next wednesday
then a month after that new found glory/PARAMORE x2.
can i get a whoop whoop?
i love avril's new song.
i love the video clip even more.
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[11 Feb 2007|10:31am] |
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fuck off anxiety and doubt
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[08 Dec 2006|06:49pm] |
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when you used to rag on me for everything you could think of, i hung around. i forgave and forgave. i knew i shouldn't but i thought it was better to have you around bitching to me than to not have you around at all.
then one day, i decide i'm better than that and i decide to hate you too. it's pretty clear you can't handle it when i stand up for myself.
now, i'm over it. i haven't had to deal with you for months, its been alright. having the freedom to say what i want without being critisized for it ..
i feel like everyones changing around me. people becoming friends with people they hated. people contradicting themselves when it comes to their boyfriends.
dunno. just frustrated with people i guess.
on a plus note, this time next week i will be in the possession of a NOFX ticket. that outweighs all the bad as far as i'm concerned.
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[30 Nov 2006|12:44pm] |
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plain white t's |
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ooo look at me i love electro.
oooo look at me i love indie.
get the fuck over it.
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| ladybugs. |
[20 Nov 2006|06:52pm] |
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hellogoodbye |
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i'm confused. i don't understand how someone can go from being completely depressed, hating life and being all mopey, to being the complete opposite within a week ?
how people can say they despise stuff that two months ago they were doing? how all people want is to be different, yet they are just the same as everyone else?
i dont know. people make me fucking sick.
i used to think this girl was cool, i didn't think she could be so stupid.
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[15 Nov 2006|10:42am] |
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I MISS AMI!
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| just a threpeutic chain of events. |
[15 Oct 2006|07:10pm] |
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a week since panic! at the disco.
best concert i've been to in a while.
i didn't think they could pull off their album live and wasn't interested in meeting them so much.
after sunday's show, without a doubt have nothing but praise to say about them. and wanted (and succeeded) in meeting songwriter/guitarist ryan.
definately worth everything. money for tickets. waking up super early to get tickets. waiting for hours both days to watch them. going to work tired as anything after not wanting to sleep after their concert.
i know a lot of people have their own opinions about them, but in my opinion, they are nothing short of perfect.
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| so you don't want to hear about my good day. |
[23 Sep 2006|08:37pm] |
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heavens |
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i'm so sick of you. you're everywhere i turn. you're all everyone talks about. it drives me nuts. i'm not jealous, not at all. i have nothing to be jealous of. don't flatter yourself into thinking i'm jealous. i just feel like you're trying to take whats mine. and you don't even care that you're doing it. you're all about friendship, yet you would break all the friendship rules just to ensure you have a social life.
don't ask me if i'm going out, because if i am, i don't want you around anymore. you're not the person you used to be. i miss the you from four years ago. this person you've become, its not you. you do things now you never ever cared for. you like things, you say things, you do things you once swore you wouldn't. all because you want to be cool. you want to be in. i guess its worked.
being around you puts me in a bad mood. you make me angry, and i'm sick and tired of it. i'm sick of you calling my friends for lifts, i'm sick of you falling in love with all of my friends, i'm sick of them falling in love with you back. all their feelings do is make your ego bigger, you don't care if you hurt them, but if they get you out of your house you're more then happy to use them.
****
you make me so fucking angry. we don't even talk anymore but you make my business your business. how dare you insult me, bag me, talk shit about me. we're not even friends anymore because i finally for once stood up to you, and you couldn't handle it. you make me sick.
i wish i stood up for myself years ago when you thought you could just fuck me over. you never gave a shit about me or my feelings, and i hate you for that. had i known then what i know now, i would have saved myself a lot of anger and hurt, cos you would have been out of my life years ago.
i'm sick of you having a go at me about shit that happened months ago. you must be bored, if you even bother. i wanted to fight back, but if i do you just get a kick out of it. i can't have opinions around you, i cant disagree with anything around you, because you seem to have it in for me big time and everything i say you just find a way to critacise me.
i can't wait for the day everyone realises your just a fucking joke. i can try to warn people, but they need to find out for themselves. i'm so glad your not in my life, so so so glad. i'm so happy without you in it, so much more happy then i could have ever been with you in my life. everything is fucking sweet and i love that you have absolutely nothing to do with me. LEAVE ME ALONE!
****
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| ha |
[15 Sep 2006|02:07pm] |
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its pretty funny isn't it? how people can have such different sides. to think i may have given you a chance, but now i see that i was nothing but a joke to you. don't twist my words around to look so defenseless.
i'm off to work now gonna go play in traffic.
thanks a fucking lot.
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| yawn |
[12 Sep 2006|06:40pm] |
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my chemical romance |
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work was busy. going to watch silent hill. need some dinner.
my anti-pushover has started. i think i'm doing pretty good. i'm trying not to give in so easily. i'm succeeding.
I listen to you cry
I cry for less attention
But both my hands are tied
And I’m pushed into the deep end
I listen to you talk
But talk is cheap
And my mouth is filled with blood
From trying not to speak
that pretty much sums it up. i refuse to be anyones doormat, i refuse to let people think they can treat me like shit and get away with it.
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| we all know. |
[10 Sep 2006|09:25pm] |
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mrs o - the dresden dolls |
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days without medication make me feel nausious. makes me feel weak and faint. makes me feel lousy.
"i used to rely on self medication, i guess i still do that from time to time". or every day.
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