blahhhh

being home alone is awesome, getting to watch whatever i want, peace and quiet. i love it.
the novelty wears off though.
when it comes to dinner time and i have to make my own food.
usually, i'd be ok with it, but today i'm hungover as shit.
got so messy last night, this morning was not a pretty picture.
now its almost 8:30pm and i'm so bored and lonely.
:(
  • Current Mood
    lonely lonely

canberra

i might use this thing a little more now.
why the fuck not right?
ami. i might get you to make it pretty like your one. i have no idea how to do it myself.

so, what a day/night last night was.
apart from the joy that soundwave will be, i don't think anything will top ami and my canberra trip for a while.

up there with the best 24 hours of my life.

we're the stealthest of stealth.

MCS are the some of the great loves of my life.

or so i thought ..

friend·ship
/'fr?nd??p/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[frend-ship] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun

1. of being a friend; association as friends: to value a person's friendship.
2. a friendly relation or intimacy/
3. friendly feeling or disposition.

last time i checked, it also meant to never judge your opinion of a "friend" based on someone else's thoughts and feelings. it sucks that because some people i thought were my friends lack that ability to be able to make their own mind up about me, that i'm the one that misses out and has to let go of a friendship i really hoped wouldn't change due to circumstances i no longer wish to have any part in.

i didn't think you would make up your own mind about me without asking me anything about the situation.
i also didn't think you'd be the one to rule me out when you know nothing about the situation, and whatever you're being fed is only a one sided story, and even that's probably 75% bullshit.
you're the one person i hoped wouldn't change towards me with this whole thing, i had hoped that you would be able to understand and that you would know better than to believe everything you hear.

everyones a let down

when you need me i'm there.
i'm not the only one who noticed your rudeness.
i know to you i'm security for when things go bad.
when things go bad you turn to me, and in turn, i'm there for you.
when things are good i hardly exist.
i hint the sarcasm in your txt.
i notice i get no reply with comments.
i want to kill you like only a best friend could.
with kindness.
i'm not going to let it bother me.
i'm going to try anyway.
see how long it takes before you need something.
before you need me to take you away from whats getting you down.
i can't depend on you.
i love you.
  • Current Music
    the postal service.

ouch.

paramore cancelled their australian tour.
im completely devistated.
as if i havent waited for long enough.
  • Current Mood
    cranky cranky

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i want to make my journal pretty.
any help would be appreciated.
trying for a job at muffin break. fingers crossed.
+44/unwritten law thursday
mxpx friday
fall out boy next wednesday
then a month after that new found glory/PARAMORE x2.
can i get a whoop whoop?

i love avril's new song.
i love the video clip even more.
  • Current Music
    the dresden dolls

meh

when you used to rag on me for everything you could think of, i hung around. i forgave and forgave. i knew i shouldn't but i thought it was better to have you around bitching to me than to not have you around at all.
then one day, i decide i'm better than that and i decide to hate you too. it's pretty clear you can't handle it when i stand up for myself.
now, i'm over it. i haven't had to deal with you for months, its been alright. having the freedom to say what i want without being critisized for it ..

i feel like everyones changing around me. people becoming friends with people they hated. people contradicting themselves when it comes to their boyfriends.
dunno. just frustrated with people i guess.

on a plus note, this time next week i will be in the possession of a NOFX ticket. that outweighs all the bad as far as i'm concerned.
  • Current Music
    nofx.